Music is My Life.

Well, I'm sitting here at work being pretty bored and need to take a break from feeding my weird fascination with Ghost Hunters; I decided to write on here and give some of the background/meaning stories to some of the songs on my play-list here. I won't share all of them, or all of the story(s). So-here you go:

• Looking For Angels-Skillet: My ex-boyfriend, David, introduced me to Skillet one night before we started dating with the song "Yours to Hold" and I instantly fell in love with the song, and the music group. Upon further exploration I ran into "Looking For Angels" and realized how much truth is in the song. People, whether they know it or not, are looking for angels in life. The whole song has poetic lyrics and I love it.
• Lost- Michael Buble: While I am a fan of Michael in general, this song I particularly love. Especially the chorus. "You are not alone, I'm always there with you....cause when you feel like you're done, and the darkness has won, babe you're not lost. When your world's crashing down, and you cannot bear the thought, I said babe, you're not lost." The whole song hits a chord, but that part of the chorus says it.
• February Song- Josh Groban: I love the beautiful calming and empowering of Josh Grobans beautiful voice, and while I couldn't find "So She Dances" this song is close in the runnings. It kind of just says: "Even if I'm not myself, I don't want to let you down, I'll come back. I don't want to let my friends and loved ones down, so don't worry if I slip-I'll be back." I went though a period for a couple months where I wasn't myself, and people could tell. I was listening to this song and it totally fit with everything that I was unknowingly thinking and feeling. The "old friend" in the song being me and I was lost in a February Song of sorts of my own .... as the song said-I promise you, I'll come back to you. And I did.
  
• Collide-Howie Day: This song was the last song that was played at the Christmas Dance my senior year. I went with a very good and special friend of mine, Joe. I've always remembered this song and connected it with him and all the times we had before he went on his mission (hang outs, all nighters, parties, conversations, confession sessions) and lyric lines in this song fit with us and our friendship as well.
• Vulnerable- Secondhand Serenade: I hate being vulnerable...but I love deep conversations. So, there are many times where I find myself talking with a friend and we both reach a new level in conversation where we find ourselves confiding in the other things we didn't plan on, or didn't know were even there. Both feeling extremely vulnerable but taking the chance.
  
• I'm Not Okay (I Promise)- My Chemical Romance: This song is just a good song when you're not okay. It says it through the whole song. It says "I'm Okay" and "I'm Not Okay". Trying to tell the world you're okay, but then slipping in-no really....I'm not okay. Me and my friend Heidi (who introduced me to the beauty of this song on the way up to Logan one day when neither of us was okay) and so when we need each other, all we have to text the other one is "I'm Not Okay." and then we know that something is seriously wrong.
• Where You Lead, I Will Follow-Carole King & Louise Goffin: Also known as the theme song for "Gilmore Girls". Very true for all my friends. If they need me-I'll do anything I can to be there. "I Will Follow You Into The Dark"- Death Cab For Cutie: It has the same meaning to it.
• Let Me Be Myself- 3 Doors Down: Kind of the same as "February Song". Getting lost in a person that isn't you. People expecting you to be someone you're not as they've seen you as someone else. Getting so absorbed and tired of being that person. And just wanting to be yourself, and being able to shine as who you are. "Car Crash" by Matt Nathanson is like the after work of this song for me. Once you've come back and finding the exhilaration of coming back. And having your true friends embrace you and just wanting to live life because in a sense you've felt dead compared to what you're feeling now. Just breaking free and living.
  
• Riverdance- Bill Whelan: Duh...does this need explanation?? Okay, well, I'm Irish. I dance. I love it. There you go. I dance to this song in my hardshoes and it's a total blast.
• For Good-Wicked: I sent out a text to some friends with the question of "If you could dedicate one song to me, what would it be?" And my friend Bailey answered back with this song. Another one contributed was "Isn't She Lovely" by Stevie Wonder.
  
• Boston-Augustana: I have this odd fascination with Boston. I've never been there...but I've wanted to go East. This song I think sparked my inner drive to go East. The thought of going somewhere for a fresh start always sounds appealing.
• Faithfully-Journey: My friend Drew said he was going to serenade me with this song. He also self-appointed himself as my fiance. He always made me feel special. I can't explain all the ways how. Coming up behind me in band or in the hallway and putting his arms around me. Wrapping me in a blanket with him on a cold day. Skipping A.P. Statistics to hear me play a musical selection in seminary. It seems he always had the same greeting for me, "Hello beautiful, how are you today?"
• Broken- Lifehouse: This was/is still kind of my theme song for a long time. Somehow, some people think this song is depressing...which it really is-I'll give you that. But only to an extent. "I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing. With a broken heart, that's still beating." Come on, yeah, that's depressing...but listen to the next line! "In the pain, there is healing. In your name, I find meaning. So I'm holding on. I'm holding on. I'm holding on. I'm barely holding on to you." No matter how broken you may seem...there's still hope. There's going to be that one person you hold onto. Where in no matter how down, depressed, broken and lost you may seem-there's still that line of hope. "I'm hanging on another day, just to see what you will throw my way. And I'm hanging on to the words you say. You said that I will be okay."
• Hero/Heroine- Boys Like Girls: Shortly after moving home from Logan, I went out with my Morgan. We went to a concert and then were in his room, laying on his bed just talking. There was music playing on his computer and then this song came on, and he said it fit for us, for that night.
• Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol: I'm not quite sure why, or how...but this song I've always connected with my Colton. And the more I listen to it, the more it seems to fit. One night in his backyard, us plus Elise just laid on the grass and looked at the stars. Spending half the time not even really saying anything. Forgetting everything. Colton and I have great plans to go to Ireland when he gets back from his mission.
• Swing Life Away- Rise Against: Secrets, secrets...teehee. This song kind of has double meaning. One story, I won't really share. But the other one I will, my old roommate Jacki and I loved to drive. Many Saturdays we'd venture to Idaho...for no reason. We both love this song, and it kind of fits with our age group-ish too.
• Lullaby (Goodnight My Angel)- Billy Joel: As I mentioned, sleep is kind of hard sometimes. And I love this song! It's so relaxing and kind of just gives you warm fuzzies inside. After I listen to this song, I am relaxed and can get calm enough to sleep.

So, as you can tell, music is my life. Or at least I can relate music to many events/people in my life. As you've notice, I did not share some songs or some stories, deal with it. Some stories I won't. But you got these ones, in case you were curious about some of the songs on my list. And to give me something else to do at work. I'll keep updated on them and make additions and such. "Where words fail, music speaks." "Music takes you to a whole other world where everything seems perfect." "Music makes the world make sense." Music puts things into words that I never can say." Some of my favorite music quotes. Until next time...